Monthly Archive for May, 2009

Full Presence

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It was the reality of existing things,
It was the consciousness of all that lived
And felt and saw; it was Timelessness and Time,
It was the Bliss of formlessness and form.
It was all Love and the one Beloved’s arms,
It was sight and thought in one all-seeing Mind.


Sri Aurobindo, Savitri; The Book of Yoga; Canto VII The Cosmic Spirit and Cosmic Consciousness


The Reality of Existing Things

There are moments where I sit most fully in the realization and recognition that all of reality is possible in this moment, all of Reality is present in this moment. Right where we are, exactly what we are doing, just as we are, exactly as we are being, Everything is present. It is always fascinating to me when the fullness of this realization opens up the most clearly for me – it is very natural and also still surprises me with its simple clarity. I am coaching third base in a little league game and thin silver clouds swirl in a vast blue ceiling overhead, hundreds of tiny white locust blossoms suddenly fall like light snow over the green grass, and the scents of new roses and honeysuckle drift through the air, and suddenly, there it All is. First graders gather on our school stage to stand before the Upper School students and speak about Hindu gods and goddesses while brightly colored drawings they have created are projected on the screen behind them – they invoke the names of Ganesha, Indra and Sarasvati and speak with such poise and stature, then dance together to the enthusiastic appreciation of the audience, and all time and age disappears, nothing is separate. Or watching the students I have taught in their instrumental concert performance: flutes, cellos, drums, trumpet, I find myself so totally fallen into the sparkling, glowing, crashing waves of just this – the simple spring music of awakening again and again to that which is Real and True and ever present, incomparable, ineffable and unsurpassable, shining blindingly bright and unseeable in finer colors than any mind’s eye could ever conceive, every light, darkness, joy, sorrow, elated broken heart sewn up in a pinecone and dropped into the sun, and then It is everywhere, all over again of course, vibrating on every string, breathed in with every essence, reflected off every surface ringing out and striking the very core so that nothing remains, absolutely nothing but everything that ever was, is, or shall be. So let there be no doubt that we can teach from that place, where inspiration and insight are the other side of discipline and dedication.

What does it look like when we are teaching from this place of one all-seeing Mind? What is the history of one all-seeing Mind, the language of one all-seeing Mind, the literature of one all-seeing Mind, the genetics of one all-seeing Mind? Yesterday, I was enjoying one of my last classes of the year with a group of ninth grade students I have been with since September. We were exploring the inheritance of blood types and colorblindness as examples of sex-linked traits and multiple alleles. And right there in the room with us was every class we had ever had together, every conversation that had taken place between us, all the possibility and all that was to be. I paused for a moment and told them how much I appreciated the work we have done together this year and the ways we have been present for each other. Every teacher on the planet is inhabiting this most precious of roles in the human family, the chance to be with others in the shared space of sight and thought. May we all continue to take up this role with realization and gratitude.

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Seeing what is – appreciating

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Where I teach, this is a season of great appreciation as we feel the nearing completion of another year of working together. The season itself seems to celebrate the growth and learning; all that has been created, all that has been shared. Students who are preparing to leave us and move on to continue their education in a new setting are particularly engaged in this articulation of what the experiences have meant to them, what they will take with them on the next stage of their journeys. In our weekly Meeting, we have heard the most eloquent and tender expressions of gratitude for the encouragement and nurturing that has been offered over a span of many years. Some of our students have been attending this one school for fourteen years – they sometimes have a hard time imagining what life will be like when they in fact move on from this family they have known for so long. I am also engaged in a process of dialogue with these departing seniors in an intentional process of listening to what they would like to share with the institution before they leave us. It is both rewarding and always interesting to hear the many perspectives that are brought forward. Among the important themes that students seem to want very much to express is the sense of how important the care and attention have been that they have received. If there was ever any doubt whether or not the time and energy spent in this work of serving as educators makes a difference, one would need only to sit and listen for a few minutes to know that it has been deeply meaningful. How very fortunate we are to have the opportunity to serve in this role, to be present for all that happens in the relationships along the learning path. Watching the unending change of the seasons and stages, we can appreciate things just as they are.


What is it we most appreciate about the places where we teach and the experiences we have had? How does this practice of giving time for gratitude, pausing to reflect on what we have been offered, shape the experience of being a teacher?


The warm weather and flowering oaks also take me back out into the field as we move through lilacs and viburnums to the full leafy branches of a returning summer. Last weekend, I drove with a friend to the pine barrens of neighboring New Jersey. We sat out under the tiniest sliver of an April new moon on a sandy lane alongside a series of cranberry bogs. The green branches of low shrubby blueberries lined the road and the cranberries were adorned with their tiny white hanging urn like flowers. The air smelled like warm pine and butterscotch, and the night was loud with an unceasing chorus of spring peepers and carpenter frogs, accompanied by whippoorwill calls and toad trills. I love the seasonality that accompanies the teaching year, the way each thing follows the next, both familiar and unpredictable, not entirely unknown, and still not the same.

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